Hari Ini...

Hari ini malam datang bulan mengambang hati tak tenang gelisah menjulang tak mampu dihalang...
Hari ini rasa sendiri tak mahu kekal statik lagi tak ingin terus mengesat hingus yang mengalir tak henti...
Hari ini segala yang menyesakkan segala yang menyemakkan tak perlu disimpan wajib dilepaskan...
Hari ini janji dipatri harapan berderai cantum menguntum misi kembali beraksi tanpa sangsi...
Hari ini bukan hari esok bukan hari semalam tetapi hari ini merupakan hari ini yang begini...
Hari ini dah tak lagi sepi :)

Asing...

Macam mana nak buat kalau kita biar kita biar je dia buat kita tapi kita tak nak biar dia terus biar dia terus buat kita... Apa masalah kita... Kita bodoh atau sememangnya bodoh sebab kita biar dia buat kita macam kita ni bodoh tapi memang bodoh pun kalau kita buat bodoh... Kita kan patut belajar dari kesilapan tapi bukan kesilapan belajar dari kita... Semua ni agaknya ada kena mengena dengan rupa dia yang boleh bertukar kejap ia kejap tidak kejap betul kejap buat konon betul kejap memang betul... Entah lah yang mana satu yang betul... Cuba cakap betul-betul cuba buat sesuatu betul-betul... Agaknya kita yang dah tak betul... Susah juga nak kata sebab semua itu dah tak lagi asing bagi kita... Biar betul...

Shallow...

I'm losing it... Seriously...
Yesterday you meant everything to me, but suddenly, you meant nothing to me anymore...
You were my prince charming then, but now, you're just a complete stranger...
It doesn't make any sense...

We used to be comfortable around each other, and yet, some how, we turn into a monster towards one another... Well, maybe not into a monster, but absolutely an out sider who can't seem to hate each other... You know, I didn't manage to put this whole idea into a totally one perfect picture but more of seeing it all broken into pieces bit by bit... It hurt...

I read a book of wisdom, and i've learnt that "it is better to light a candle than to curse the darkness" but i don't know if i can handle it this time... The fact that the lies we tell ourselves are more dangerous than the lies that we tell others is killing me right now... What should i do? It's like knowing the right thing to do, but the hardest part is doing it...

I know you have every right to be happy, but i don't think i deserve to feel guilty nor i refused to feel needy... To top it all, i know, i have every right to feel angry and i'm sorry... Now i know, i love you means, goodbye to you... Thank you...

Deadlock...

Hmmm... Firstly, i am your friend... Secondly, i am still your friend... Last but not least, i will always be your friend no matter what comes our way... Oh dear, should i fake it and pretend to be happy for you or should i just tell you the truth... I am your friend and i will always be but for what it worth i don't think i can this time around... The ultimate truth would definitely tear your heart apart and that would be something that i won't wish to happen... I don't know what to do... I know you're happy and i am not in a position to ruin it because i will be the last person on earth you would expect it to be... I'm a horrible person i know :( How can it be so easy for him... He can simply come and go as he pleased and get a way with it... Hate his guts... Hate him full stop... He is not a bad person and i don't really hate him per se but he doesn't deserve any of my respect in this manner... I don't think the word "respect" exist in his dictionary because it seems that easy for him... Enough already... I know i shouldn't judge him that way but i just can't help it but to feel this way about him... I do feel sorry for him some how... Sorry Mr but i can't be happy for the both of you knowing that, where you both are heading towards to, would be something that one should always avoid and never commit into... The road to no where but dead ends... The journey to temporary happiness that will leads to sadness in the end unless you both stop it right this instance... I'm sorry for not telling this time because i just don't know who am i protecting right now, you, him or myself indeed...